There's a lot a lot a lot of things i want to say..........

After woke up from my short nap,

im feeling moody suddenly and feeling uncomfortable..

is it something bad is going to happen soon??

i dont hope that it would happen on me..

im really too weak and stress to face a lot of problems alone.

i cant stand on it..

the other reason that im feeling moody is because of im going to leave soon.

im going to leave my lovely and caring cell group members soon.....

a strong feelings of sadness filled me up right now..:(

i dont wanna leave...

Although we just knew each other not more than two months,

it seems like we knew each other for 10 years..

really have to thank god that he made us to be together..Amen.

Is a question mark(?) that i dono when i will be coming back....

but off course i hope in between i can come back to my big and warm family- FGA CYC...

if possible, i wish to spend all of my time with u guys always....
must be always put me in ur mind ya... ^&^
have to update me how r u all doing after i leave ok?? promise???

i dont want next year when i come back, feel like being forget and being left out..=(

God, heal me..im so lonely and empty right now.....
God, let me hear ur voice and talk with please..let me know that u are still with me, im nt lonely at all..

I love you Jesus...

oh ya, the most important thing, have to follow up my sheep , eunice and karen ya.. ^^

They need u all so much..

I wish our cell group keep growing, growing and growing..not only growing in the number of cell group members, but everyone growing in our spritual life too.. so that we can have more confidence towards god.. I hope got more than 50 members when i come back, Amen???

"Ask ,and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find;knock, and it will be opened to you.

For everyone who asks and receives, and the one who seeks finds, and to the one who knocks it will be opened." quoted from Matthew 7:7-8

Last but not least, love you all and will miss you always my dearest brother and sister in christ..

God bless ^&^

With tears,

Beverly Ng

6.15p.m

The feelings is getting stronger , but im getting weaker ....

I really don't know how to express my feelings right now..

These few days, im emo....

Loving a person is really tiring..

The feelings towards YOU is getting stronger and stronger...

i really dono how to express it out..

should i give up or keep waiting for the day to date with you???

or maybe we don't even have the chance to become couple??

I'm suffer.....

what should i do ????

I think what i can do is just pray...

I'm sure that god will prepare a better man for me...

Being single for almost one year already.....

I'm weak.... =(

Last but not least, friends, please remember me in your prayer....

With tears,
Beverly Ng........

7/5/2010

7/5/2010

记得去年的今天，是阿毛的生日.

我准备了生日惊喜给他。

我们一起吃完晚餐之后，

我蒙住他的眼睛，带他去那个他曾经给过我生日惊喜的公园。

今天，又是阿毛的生日。在百般犹豫之下，还是给他发了短信，祝他生日快乐。在他回复之后，通了电话，问候了对方的近况，还聊了很多，还互相鼓励好好努力生活

其实很开心能打电话，很开心听到你的声音，很开心还能真正像好朋友一样的聊天。

我也很真心地希望他每天都开心，快乐。

我觉得自己很矛盾，说着希望走向明天，却总是的向后看。说着昨天又怎么的。可能人都是这样的念旧。

Question:是归宿，还是过客？

Answer:曾经觉得是归宿，现在却成了过客。

The end...

What a tiring day!!! =(

A day that full of classes which is frm 9am until 4pm..

In between, it's just an one hour break..oh my gosh!!

i just building castles in the air while Miss Donna and Miss Lee lecturing..

It's freaking boring..

waiting, waiting and waiting for the lunch time....

Anyway, i have a blessed Mc Donald Double cheese burger and french fries from Ivan..

Thanks for sending me the lunch purposely, i appreciate it ^&^

sorry to Jeffrey as he had dated me for lunch but i ffk... ==

I hate KDU so much as we have to wear proper dress code,

no short pants and mini skirts are allowed..wht the hell is tht!!!

we are no longer a high school student,as long as we din too over ,

i think is fine..why do we have a lot of rules to follow??

somemore lecturers complaining tht everyday we are just like wearing "bikini" to college..

wht a such description..DAMN

Anyway, it's time to back home..Hurray!!!

Andrew fetch me after class then went to have a look at the room tht i will be moving in..

Add oil to myself, have to work hard for essays again....

To be continue................

让“过去”沉淀，让“明天”升华

昨天

昨天的一切历历在目，那些一切一切都像只是发生在昨天，都不曾离开。

我记得我们一起过的每一个生日，你精心准备的每次的惊喜，你总是那么用心.；

我记得去年情人节，你很用心收集我们的合照，剪成各个形状，做成一本纪念册送给我，看着那些我们一起的回忆，仍然会很难过，很感动你的用心，我会永远好好保存；

我记得我们一起走过的每条路，不管是打是闹，我们仍肩并肩的说好一起走下去；

我记得我们疯狂的每个礼拜都跑去k歌房唱歌，却不会觉得无聊，因为是和你在一起，即使发呆看着你一直到老，我也不会觉得累，因为我们在一起；

我记得我们一起经历那些痛苦的事，我们双手紧握着，当时我知道你一直到在，不管发生什么事你都会一直在我身边，我们永不分开。

所有的记得，忘记它谈何容易。

每天还是习惯收集你点点滴滴的消息，电话总是形影不离害怕当它响起错过你的声音。能不能再次相遇？

我真的力不从心也不想再骗自己。

我承认我至今为止我还是很想念你，但我决定把那些记得，那些曾经的一切，那些习惯放在昨天。

对我来说，这是个美好的昨天。


今天

听说，你很痛苦，我以为你很快乐。
我和别人一样都看到你很幸福，我也衷心的祝你真正的幸福，拥有真正的快乐。

现在回想起那些我们的昨天，我已经不会像以前那样难过伤感。现在，我很欣慰，很开心拥有这些美好的回忆。

谢谢你...

一枚戒指代表一段真挚的感情，上帝让它不见，预示着要放弃过去，真正去释怀这段情感。
那些曾经就如这个丢失的戒指，再找不回了。我们所能期待的是明天。

放弃了昨天的忧伤，我开始期待明天的快乐了。

明天会是个晴天！

明天

我会好好生活，会很大声的笑。我会拥有美好的梦想，为了我自己努力。

我也依然会相信爱情。
我不需要一个很完美的人，只要个贴心对我好的人，会永远陪在我身边。


放弃昨天痛苦 庆幸今天美好 期待明天更好

It's time to let go

Well, I know it's reli the time for me to let go as u already have a gf...

With the things you have did, I guessed you made the choice.

Thinking back now,I was just like a fool..

Waiting every single day, still hoping that we can have the chance to date back..

I should really let go this unforgettable and deep relatonship between me and you although it is really hard,tough for me..

Through all these times,I guess i was just wrong.

Why did I have to love you all along??

I wanna go back,like we never even met...

I guess it's just life everything's already set..

When we first met, right from the start,

I gave you my love and I gave you my heart,

How could I have known that I"ll be left alone.

I'm sitting by myself, crying all my tears out,

and with a little thought,you're what my life's about.

Now you're with ur girl,every single day..

What am i suppose to do??What am i suppose to say??

Before i go to sleep, every single night,

I just pray to God for you to have a happy life.

I gotta hold it inside, just let it pass me by,

I will never make u mad, I will never make u sad,

I tell myself it's ok, it ain't gonna be bad.

I just lie to myself, holding everything inside,

I don't wanna let you know that I want to cry,

But yet,I try and it's getting so hard..

It's like I have to lie, from keeping us apart,

And the truth is to be told, that I don't wanna let go

But you should know, to me you mean the world,

But I'm thinking negative, I didn't think about the times.

Times you made me smile, everything will be fine..

Through any situations I will sacrifice..

Whatever makes you happy, just go ahead..

The only thing I want is for you to be mine,

But we were so far apart, were in two different worlds,

It's getting so dark, I don't know what should be told

I guess the time has come, and I gotta let go..

This is too much pain, I can't take it anymore...no....

Hope you will be happy with your new relationship with her!!!

Blessed with tears...

Beverly Ng <3